Mood: Tired
Song of Choice: "Tourniquet" by Evanescence
Topic: Selfish
Days That Have Passed Since I sent Eric's Letter: 10 Weeks and 5 days
Days Until Spring Break: 2

Man I'm so so tired! God I mean I've been catering to other people for the last two weeks! I want me time. I mean I love helping people but man can I get a minute for ME!! Man I'm tired...I just want to say screw all of you people I'm spending the day with Daniel...watch a few movies...cuddle on the couch...I mean God is that so much to ask? I mean...man I'm not angry or anything just kinda like...I love you guys too but come on Kim needs to focus on her own life crises every once in a while. I mean shoot. Look Lisette Jonnell listen to me I love you both and making sure everything is okay is my job and I accept that but I need time for me too I mean today I cried for like 20 minutes in 3rd block the reason isn't important but I think it's a clear sign that I need to nurse my own wounds. Don't offer to help because I won't let you I fly alone on this like this one I hate having people help me...I can handel things on my own.

Anyway that said I think I'm going to rest...so tired..

"Tourniquet"

i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide